Hello, i havent blogged in a while, im not really sure why i just never have anything to blog about other than ultimate sadness but lately stuff has actually been happening so i might aswell blog about it.
Everything blew up at home and now i might be going into foster care. Im so scared, you have no idea. The thought of living with someone i dont know is terrifying me so fucking much. Mum almost kicked Nigel out insead of me having to go but she realised how much that would effect the kids and i mean, she has a point but its still not great to be told you leaving is best for the whole family. While im gone nigel will be having anger management and as a family we will be having therapy. Again, idk how i feel about that i just know im scared. If i do go into temporary foster care i don't get any say in who i live with for 3 fucking weeks[at least] and that annoys me a lot. I guess anything would be better than living here though, even if im with people i don't even know.
Jathryn has been a rollercoster ride tbqh. Its back to being perfect now but for a while i think jazz and i felt a bit lost. Ofc all relationships have ups and downs but its not even like we argue, we just both have major jealousy issues that we dint really know how to deal with. Anyway now Jathryn are right back on the perfect train and we are travelling along the tracks to recovery. Were both gonna get better now, were gonna be healthy and we are gonna want to live. And that's all i really have to say about Jathryn at the moment.
We're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again
So i think that's all i have to say for now, ill try to get into the habit of blogging again but im not making any promises.
Sleeping now, goodnight x
