I'm so sorry. I really am.

I want to say I can stay strong, but I don't think I can. I want to do it. I don't know if I can fight this urge. Its all so hard. you're meant to make it better but you don't. I want to feel something. I'm fed up of feeling alone. I managed to put on a smile. Just for you. But now that I'm on my own again its back to being like this. I can't help but feel like I have failed you. Everything you have done to try and help me and I'm just throwing it all away. I want to let you help but now, maybe I'm beyond help...

And  our scars remind us 

That  the past is real(8)

Scars-PaPa roach