Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?

I can't handle this. I want you to say you feel the same way but I know that won't happen. I mean, why would anyone? I can't keep dwelling on this. It's all I can think about. It's horrible. I need someone to talk to about it. Sure, I have both of them but I still worry that secretly they are judging me&that they are going to tell there friends and they're all going to laugh about me. I don't know, I don't know how to think or feel. I feel numb and emotionless. I feel dead.