No-one can ever change this animal i have become

Well, I fucked that up. I don't even know why I thought I could do it, why I thought I would be able to get past this. BLERGH. I have let everyone down, im a disgrace.

FRIDAY. IT WILL BE BETTER THAN TODAY OMG EXCITMENT. I have missed Jazz so much tho:'c  

I'm so proud of her for being able to do this, so much I shall be making her a present, bc i luff her. Friday will be amazing though, she will be in my bed, yay:') omg I'm actually in a good mood other than what happened earlier and feeling guilty about that. Speaking of feeling guilty- Net:749- I guess its good because trying to recover but blergh, fat fat fat:'( 

OKAY BAI BAI